So even though I have already written once today I felt compelled to share the rest of my day. Today was kind of interesting, it had its ups, its downs, and all together by the end of dinner I needed a break. For some reason during the middle of dinner at the center I began to feel hesitant towards things that are happening in my life but I knew I did not need to worry about them. So as a way to find out what was causing this I began to say silent prayers during dinner. By about 6:30 or so I for some reason knew I just couldnt continue to sit around in the center. It was almost as if for some reason God wanted me to get up and go, though I dont want to make that assumption just because thats the way I was feeling at the moment, but then again who am I to decide whether God was wanting to me to get up and about or not. So I ran upstairs put on my shoes, grabbed my keys, found my cell phone, and a camera ( for some reason I am not sure why I did but I ended up using it). After leaving the center, I wasnt sure where I was going, I just knew that God would compell me to go in a direction that I could find peace, so I went and filled up my gas tank, and started to drive. I found myself leaving Oxford on highway 6 headed towards Batesville. Insane I know, driving around with no clue as to where I was going to go, much less where I would end up with it being so close to dark. All I knew at that point was that I needed to get out of town, it didnt matter where, just some place where I could go to think and to find clarity. As I drove though I turned off my music, rolled down my windows (of course I will pay for that later when my allergies catch up as they are just now beginning to) and I said a continuous prayer that God will help me to find peace and clarity and of course thanking him for all of the blessings he has bestowed upon my family and I and thanking him for everything he has done for me. Well about half way to Batesville, I turned right, off of the highway and I instantly knew where I wanted to go. I was headed towards Sardis Lake Christian Camp, the camp I went to every year for nearly 10 years. The camp is about a mile from sardis lake. So after driving for nearly 40 minutes I finally got to the camp and found myself continuing on the road and eventually onto the dirt road that it transitions to just down the road. After another 5 or so minutes I came to a stop. I was there, at the lake. A two minute hike down some small rocks brought me to what the camp so fondly called 'the point' where we went for one of the evening devos during the week we spent at camp. I retrieved my camera from my car and slowly made my way down the rocks stopping every few seconds to take a picture of different things, mainly I took pictures of the sunsetting though. After I ran out of film, I sat down and cleared all the thoughts in my head and restarted my prayer. This time though I spent the whole time I was in prayer just thanking him for everything. After about 15 or 20 minutes in prayer I began to sing songs of praise to God. I sang any song that came to mind. Amazingly enough though the only songs that came to mind were songs that are usually requested at Prayer and Praise on Tuesday nights. Songs like 'As the Deer Thirst', 'Light the Fire', 'As the Deer(no not a repeat)', 'Amazing Grace', 'Blue Skies and Rainbows', and so many more. Instead of focusing on trying not to focus on things that are going on in my life right now, God held me close to his side and showed me that it was okay to run away for a little while and not think about everything that is happening, only as long as I ran back after a while. Every where I looked I could see his amazing grace for us, for his people, for the people he created that he loves so much. It is so easy to be distracted by life's little 'catastrophies' but sometimes I wonder if that is God's way of saying "Look you need to take a break and find me again, not find what you want, find what my will for you is. Only then will you find the peace you are so longingly are searching for." I found him again today. Not in the every day place that I look for him at on a 'look a little and if you dont find what your looking for give up' kind of basis, but I acutally went out of the way to find him today. It is amazing what peace overcomes you when you take the time to put God first and allow him to mend your wounds. I love my Lord, with him anything is possible even the impossible, but without him nothing is possible. He gives me strength every day. So for today and forever this is the verse that I look to for strength: "My soul finds rest in God alone, my salvation comes from him." -Psalms 62:1. That verse speaks to me because I know at the end of the day whether good or bad God is the one who will greet me and comfort me if I let him. He wants to be the one that we can go to for comfort in times of joy and despair. I trust God to guide my life and so all the little things that I have spent time dwelling on this semester and last are no longer of great importance to me because God is in control and he will be my guide.