Life can be so crazy sometimes. Last night at church we had a fellowship meal for all of the people that are moving away from Oxford in the up and coming two or so months. I realized that many of my friends were in that group. In fact most of the group was made up of people I have become very close to. Ann, Carla, and Carla's husband Nathan (Ann and Carla who are sisters are my cousins and Nathan is my cousin through marriage obviously), Leann and Jeremy, and Soko, there were a few others but for the most part those are the people I have really developed ties to. I took a look around and many of the people I had become accustomed to hanging out with are going to be gone for a while. Hayden is going to Harding next year and William is moving to Memphis from June to January. After dealing with that I realized that exams were this week and that 'oh boy' I have a stats test at eight in the morning. Things just kept building up last night. After most of the dinner was over and people began to go home, my dad and I took a walk around and discussed some of the things on my mind. We talked about me stressing over this and that, but mostly about me stressing over the things I have no control over. That seems to be one of my bigger weaknesses, I tend to feel as if I need to be in control of every thing that is going on in my life. I know its insane and its something that I have really been working on and praying about. My dad made a good point though, he said ' I know you feel like things are up in the air, especially about exams and a couple of other personal issues, but you do not need to focus on the issues that you cant do anything about. You need to relax and stop trying to be in control because you know that in the end God will take care of it all.' And he is right, I am so easily overcome by all of the things happening around me that I forget that God is in control and so I need to stop trying to always be in control. So as I continue to ramble on for just a bit more I am teaching myself at the same time that its okay to not have control over every aspect of my life and that I need to stop worrying about what will happen in the future and just concentrate on the things that are pertinate because in the end if I put my faith in God things will work out according to his will.